I can’t explain what it is
that draws me to someone
all I do know
is that when it happens
it is deep
it is dangerous
and it is impossible to break

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late at night
with eyes closed
my mind alive;
wild
with thoughts of you

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I am losing time
it may already be gone
so I say to you now
even though it feels
wrong;
I like you more than
I should

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it’s 12:01
and I wonder if you ever look at
the time and think
of me

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it had been so long since
I navigated your features
from across the room
but you didn’t know that
I did that
never would

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I crept outside
and told the night sky that
I loved you
and it was
invigorating

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I hope you understand that
when I speak the words
you consider just how hard
it was to say them to
you

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I look at you
you at me
and time stops
just for a second
and we hold each other’s gaze like it’s
the last thing
we will ever do

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the lines I would cross
you have no idea
the things I would do
you could not imagine
just to be with you

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the attraction you can’t explain
yeah that one
I feel you

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darkness
my fingertips trace my brow
my body, adjusting
the chilled air now apparent
to my senses
inhale
the winds outside whisper to me
the words clutch to my lips
but do not leave
my chest, tight
exhale
the night before flickers
I place my hand on his back
this place is my comfort
here, right now
light

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that day in the meadow
do you remember?
with the blades of grass so green
it was if they had been painted by hand
one by one
and the whistle of the wind
against the surface of the water
letting us know that Winter
would soon be here
but it wasn’t the grass
or the wind
or the water for that matter
that absorbed me so deeply
it was you

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water stains and blue bottle
I glance away and clench my fists
you’ve been here, I know
sandalwood and citrus
I will always know

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it’s midday as we lay between the lemon trees
it’s the middle of summer
you’re here for a few days
your mum has a new man in the house
but you don’t get along
that’s fine though
because you’re never home
you wish you could pack up and move away
maybe here with me
I never extend the offer because we both know you would say yes
and eventually you would tire of me too
I think you know this too so you don’t bring it up
I don’t think I could handle that
you getting tired of me, of us
it would break me
so I will take the few days we have now, between the lemon trees
I love you
I think you love me too
but we are passing by each other in ways that don’t allow
the type of love we would inhabit

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you filled me like warm water

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you were the first thing I looked at
on a Sunday in the middle of march
a moment between your exhales
where I thought
maybe I want to give you the world

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and how you’re so at peace
when you sleep, it’s as if
you and the universe
have agreed to let each other be
completely fragile and undisturbed
if only just for a moment

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seven days with you, that’s all it took
seven days with you, and all I wanted to do
was whisper, endlessly
‘I love you’

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being with you scares the hell out of me
because I don’t know if I’ll ever be able
to un-love you

so for right now
I don’t want to be anything but 
in love with you

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I want you to kiss me in the dark
navigate your way to me
underneath the stars

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hello you whispered
hello I whispered back
my mornings don’t feel the same
without your whispers between the sheets

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early October in wyoming
trees drifting with the autumn winds
it’s quiet, moody
with grey skies and never ending
shadows
your hand is in mine
and we are infinite

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for twenty six years I refused to settle
then you came along
with your entire being
and cradled my soul

I’d wait another twenty six for you

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I met a boy, he was so beautiful
he was blue skies and summer waves
he covered me like a warm wind
I met a boy
who was loved, and who didn’t want to be loved
by anyone but the boy he had

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it was too early to give you my heart
so I gave you my soul
and everything in between

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it was in the songs we listened to
while driving in your car
words of beautiful people
and falling
now I listen to those songs
when I need you here

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I still feel the kisses on the edge of my mouth
when you smile into me
I wish I could play your happiness
on repeat

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he loves you
don’t fuck this up

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I was convinced I was never to be in love
until the day I heard you laugh for the
first time
I could have sworn my heart spoke to me
‘let him have me’

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you infect me like a disease I’d happily live with
forever

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lovers from the suburbs
there’s nothing minimum about you
you are heat
a never ending warm wind
oxygen
essential to my being
essential to me

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would you believe me if I told you
I am the happiest when I am with you
could you handle that
you’d be the only one with the power to break me
please don’t

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you were Friday nights and Sunday mornings
you were becoming the roots to my world
not god-like
but a religion, just for me

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I no longer stress about the small things
knowing I have you
has put things into perspective
it is all clear now
blurry lines obsolete

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you’ve evolved on me
a tighter grip to my heart
the right amount of pressure
to keep me living

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